The pain of my soul
How can I be what I want to be?
What I want to be?
A normal girl
Who is strong and not so weak as I am at this time
I hurt somebody and get hurt of this
I never wanna do and feel this again
What should I do?
I want to be like I was before
A happy girl
Who has no problems with that what happened with her
My feelings do what they want and not what they do
I see myself shaking and hear my heart beating
I don’t want to
Everything I want is to be calm and not so scary as I am now
I’m scared about the past, the present and the future
I need somebody
Who can help me to be like I was before
A normal, happy girl who is calm and strong
But when will it happen?
I hope soon…
I hope really soon…